DAY 214 OF 2012
…..and i never blamed you for not listening…I did the same when i was young….my biggest fear was that this day would come…I was boarding a plane in Helsinki this morning when i got the phone call…It was Johnnie from New York…your dear  friend…my dear friend…”Nates gone”…he said…….I will miss you friend…you were like my little brother…and I know we had ups and downs and that we didn’t speak the past couple years but I never stopped caring for you and I know you know that….Im sorry i was tough on you but it was all out of love…Nate you meant to  much to me…to much for me to watch you go through that..….Your curiosity ..your sweet nature….your passion….You were certainly a strange little one…..i hope that you have found peace…and I am sure your mother is there wherever you are holding you in a warm embrace……may the sun shine upon you and bring that sparkle back to your eyes…God Bless Nate Castillo…Nathaniel Dwell…Little Nate……sitting here tonight in this hotel room in Chicago I cant help but cry …I am certainly going to miss you and your ways….bye friend…

…..and i never blamed you for not listening…I did the same when i was young….my biggest fear was that this day would come…I was boarding a plane in Helsinki this morning when i got the phone call…It was Johnnie from New York…your dear  friend…my dear friend…”Nates gone”…he said…….I will miss you friend…you were like my little brother…and I know we had ups and downs and that we didn’t speak the past couple years but I never stopped caring for you and I know you know that….Im sorry i was tough on you but it was all out of love…Nate you meant to  much to me…to much for me to watch you go through that..….Your curiosity ..your sweet nature….your passion….You were certainly a strange little one…..i hope that you have found peace…and I am sure your mother is there wherever you are holding you in a warm embrace……may the sun shine upon you and bring that sparkle back to your eyes…God Bless Nate Castillo…Nathaniel Dwell…Little Nate……sitting here tonight in this hotel room in Chicago I cant help but cry …I am certainly going to miss you and your ways….bye friend…